An open letter to my babies.

James and Evelyn,

Its been a while since I have written to you on here its not been intentional its just that you both like to keep me on my toes and its hard to find the time. Your both still so young right now and so I like to write to you both occasionally on here as a way to look back in the future when you are old enough to understand.

Evelyn I am pretty sure you are finding things quite frustrating at the moment. Your almost 2 and your language is coming on so well but you get so frustrated when we don't now what you want to say straight away. You are finding it hard to settle for naps and bed time too which has been hard for us all but I know we will get there eventually its just a small bump in the road.

You never fail to make us laugh Evelyn, in fact I can't remember a day in the last year when we haven't laughed at one of your funny babbles or dance moves in particular. You love causing trouble and then glancing back with that cheeky grin that means we can never be mad. You are intent on walking EVERYWHERE even when its not really ideal or possible and the mere sight of the pushchair sends you in to a melt down. I can't believe you will be 2 soon it feels like time is flying by before my eyes and before I know it you will be at nursery!

James you have made me so proud particularly the way you have handled school recently. I know when the teachers changed in your class you found it tough and had some tricky days where you just didn't want to be there. Both myself and your teachers are so proud at how well you have adapted since your new teacher started and seeing your work at parents evening made me exceptionally proud. I probably don't say it enough but I love you little man!
I often feel a little guilty once you have gone to bed and I recall the day, I worry that you sometimes feel a little left out like when I am wrestling your sister in to the car seat and you have got in all by yourself and I forget to thank you. Or when Evelyn has driven me mad all day and I seem stressed when I collect you from school. I worry you think this is because of you but its not I promise and from now on I am going to make more of an effort to leave my stress behind.

James you are an incredible big brother and I often joke that you would make a better parent than me (although sometimes I don't think im even joking!). You are such a kind, gentle and caring young man and one day I hope you get to share that with a wife and children of your own.

Parenthood for me is like taking the scenic route in life, there will be bumps, turns, hills and the occasional u turn but hey how would we know just how beautiful the scenic route was if we just took the straight road, the quick route.

When I gave birth to you both I made a promise that I may not have all the money in the world, I may not be able to give you everything you want but what I can give you is my promise of unconditional love and support and that is a promise I still hold today.

Love Mum x